Self Preservation in a Dependent World

I'm not faking
I'm just breaking inside
trying to hold myself together
trying to stay alive

Do you think I wanna be living a false reality
I'll smile here in this public place
because I still have me and I love that face

Talking to the one who hurt me most
a dagger to my heart and soul
I have to feel this pain right now
it's mine to bear and the key to hope

Can't turn away
though my thoughts want to hide 
want to forget everything 
and just survive

But I'm almost there
to that resting place
where I feel the pain
and can't forget my name

Though others lie
I'm true to myself
won't hide away
not a broken shell

I'm whole in one place
so I'll hold myself 
all of my pieces 
and all of my doubt

Living this life as my dearest friend
no one can ever take me from me again